A journal of a fight against anorexia, and the fading of my now 14 year old daughter. She was only 12 when it first began. I wanted to make Waif real again, substantial. 18 months on, Waif has regained some presence in this world and I am prepared to grab her to keep her from dimming once more. The Maudsley has been a godsend but mostly it has been hard work, the most worthwhile work we have ever done.